Dating and Love

So if you spend five minutes talking to me,you'll know that I'm a sucka for love.(Listen to Sucka for love by Danity Kane). I'm just the type of girl who loves to fall in love,smile for no reason,listen to songs while thinking of him e.t.c..I have been in many relationships,and they all ended badly.What I don't understand is why I never give up,instead I fall again within weeks! Yes,weeks!People always tell me I never learn my lesson,but no matter how hurt I get and how bad the relationship sucked,I still fall.I believe in love,ofcourse it's not easy,it has a lot of downsides,but like I said,I love the whole losing myself in him and us.It worries me that my relationships don't last long.And when I break up with a guy,weeks later you ask me if there's any new guy and I deny it..if you know me well you'll know that I'm lying.I'm ALWAYS in love.Poeple see me as someone who dates for the heck of it,and then leave when it starts to get bad and get someone else but that's not who I am.For starters,I wouldn't date you if I wasn't mad about you.I don't do relationships for lack of better things to do with my time and emotion.I take love seriously,and when I feel like I'm not getting what I want from a relationship and you're not doing anything to give me what I need(nothing sexual),then yes,I'll leave.I always like to fight for it first though,I like to devote myself to the relationship and give it/him everything I've got,so when it's time to let go,I have no regrets,because I know that I tried.And I thank God for giving me the strength and courage to always get up and leave when I'm not being appreciated or cherished.I don't want to be that woman who sits and quietly takes crap from people,I don't like to settle for less,I deserve to love and be loved in return,I deserve to be treated right.I know EXACTLY what I want and I won't stop at NOTHING till I get it.I won't sacrifice my happiness and settle for less when I know there's ALWAYS,always someone out there who'll be more than happy to give me everything I want,all it takes is to go find him..

..So next time I tell you I'm in love with someone else,please don't judge me or criticize me for dating and then breaking up with guys,I just need to find my own,and sitting and wishing for him to appear won't bring him to me,I gotta find my love!..Oh,I just did *grins..Hey I said no judging,but if you must,know that in years to come,I'll be the one with the happy relationship I always wanted and you'll be stuck with the guy who doesn't give a fiddler's fart about you and all you can do is sit and wait for him to change..Goodluck waiting,I can see that time is on your side.



xoxo..lover girl

I <3 Spring

Hey everyone! Kwana biyu ("It's been a minute" in my language)..I'm sure ya'll didn't miss me,I wonder how many people read my blog..hmm
So spring FINALLY came..If you live in a country where you have to go through months of extreme cold weather,many many degrees below zero,having to constantly wear jackets,boots,gloves and scarves,being locked up at home cuz it's too damn cold to step out,then you'll understand how happy I became when spring came.It was like a kid who finally made straight As and got the perfect present at the end of school year.I've been going out alot,all that sexy sunny weather won't go wasted.I'm addicted to icecream and icecream cakes *drools*..I went shopping for colorful tops and jewelry,and I got a new bikini..swimming,here I come! So since I'm always out doing something,I'm beginning to fear that by the time Summer is here,I would have ran out of fun things to do and places to go.So far I've gone to Schoenbrunn(It's that Palace in Vienna that has huge gardens and a Zoo,google it),I went to parks,lunch with the girls,clubbing in my "Wonder Woman" corset as my baby called it,and I even went to a department store to look at washing machines cuz mine won't work anymore.I didn't buy a new one though,I just needed a reason to step out of the house *hehe*..My dad is coming to see me next week *woot*..should be fun seeing him after months,going shopping with him (bless your soul and wallet father) and being pampered by him.He won't stay long but he'll be coming back for my 21st birthday in 3 weeks,I love my daddy!..So here are a few pictures from Spring,enjoy and hope ya'll are having a nice spring-ish beautiful weather filled with fun and love!

Do You Know?

~Do you know what it feels like to go to bed worried about whether or not you'd live to see morning?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up and burst into tears because you've been given another chance,another day? Grateful for that?

~Do you know what it feels like to hear doctors say you can't make it and there's no hope?

~Do you know what it feels like to stay strong when the odds are high?

~Do you know what it feels like to be haunted by your past, unhappy with your present and uncertain about the future? Do you?!

~Do you know what it feels like to smile when all you really wanna do is break down and cry?

~Do you know what it feels like to have your neck and back ache from being too weak and bended by life's burdens?

~Do you know what it feels like when the only people you can relate too are those suffering and not happy people?

~Do you know what it feels like to question everyone's loyalty in your life? Afraid they might not stand by you?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up in the morning and realize everyone who promised to be there walked out and left?

~Do you know what it feels like to wonder if God is still there? To beg Him not to let go?

~Do you know what it feels like to lose faith and feel so lost?

~Do you know what it feels like to pray with all your heart that the end of your suffering will be here,and not death? Do you?!

"You know nothing about my life,what I've been through,what I'm going through,and what my struggle is all about"

BooBie

Too many people have walked in and out of my life but not her.She walked in,sat,and promised never to leave.Too many people have disappointed me but not her.She's always there to cheer me up when I'm down,lift me up when I fall,laugh and cry with me,or just sit beside me and think.I'm so glad to have a bestfriend like her,cause let's face it,everyone needs that special someone in their life,who's gonna be there through thick and thin,and no matter what happens,you know they'll always be there.She's my Better Half,She's my friend,She's my sister from another mother,She's my BooBie! And today,I wish you the bestest birthday ever,and I love you,more than I did yesterday,less than I will tomorrow!

I have fought and fought
It seems like the war isn't ending
I don't know how much more I have to fight
I just know that I have to keep fighting

It's so hard because I'm too weak
And I feel like I'm too weak to even try
Too weak to keep fighting
But what other choice do I have but to fight?
Who is going to fight this war for me if I don't?

I've shed tears and broken stuff
I've fought all those who love me
I've begged them to understand my pain
And I've pleaded with them to walk with me,
Stand by me,hold my hand and never let go

But I have to keep on fighting
Because everyone in life is fighting a war
And only the stronger souls win and triumph
Everyone else breaks,falls,and loses

People look at me and wonder why I'm so sad
I try to explain that my war is too big for me
But I'm not sure they really understand
So I just smile and tell them "I'll be fine"
And then I continue to fight my war

Occasionally I stop to cry
To wipe the sweat away
I stop to rest and strech
I stop to see how far I've gone
And to see how far I still have to go
I stop to smile at my progress and
To learn the lessons from my mistakes
And then I continue fighting my war

I love those who walk with me
Those who stand by me
And those who fight with me

Together we laugh,we cry,and we fight
Till there's nothing more to fight for
Till it's all over and done with
Till I,together with them
Win the fight

I am officially obsessed with these songs:

• Trust by Keyshia Cole
• Arab Money by Busta Rhymes
• It Is Yours by J.Holiday
• Will You Be There by Micheal Jackson
• Forever And A Day by Lionel Richie

Busta Rhymes and Lionel Richie are coming to Vienna *woot..I hope I get to attend their concerts,seeing as I've already bought my tickets *rigima. Beyonce is coming too,can't wait to go do the "Single ladies" dance with her *hehe..Pink will be coming too,but unfortunately,I can't get tickets..oh well..these will do.

I had a fun spring break.My spring break started way before everyone's.I don't follow calendars and season/weather change.So for all those still stuck in winter,sorry for you!..Where was I? Yeah spring break.I had fun with my lieblings(german for darlings).We went shopping,bowling,went out of the country to Prague,played "whot"(Nigerian card game) at home,in the trains,at restaurants(I won many times,go me!!).So sad it's ended now but glad it happened.Now I feel all happy,loved,and motivated for the challenges that lay ahead for me.

What else do I need to talk about? *Hmm..

My daddy is coming soon..yay!..He's missing me..Ahhh I smell shopping :D

Falls Away

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
~This Luv By Donnell Jones

2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
~If I Was Your Man By Joe

3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
~Sucka For Love By Danity Kane

4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
~Man In Your Life By Joe

5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE??
~I Need A Love Song By Babyface

6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
~Murder She Wrote By Trey Songz

7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
~I Stay In Love By Mariah Carey

8.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN
~Gonna Find My Love By Brandy

9.WHAT IS 2+2?
~Long Distance By Brandy

10.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
~Ride For You By Danity Kane

11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
~BestFriend By J.Valentine *cough,the whole song describes us*

12.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
~Impossibe By Omarion

13.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
~If this Isn't Love By Jennifer Hudson

14.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
~If I Hurt You By Mario

15.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
~Natural High By Colby O'Donis

16.WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
~Just Stand Up (To Cancer) By Various Artists

17.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST
~Halo By Beyonce

18.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
~The Greatest By Michelle Williams

19.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
~Come With Me By Day 26

20.WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
~Good For Nothing by Ginuwine *no kidding*

21.WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
~I'ma Flirt By R.Kelly *LOL*

22.WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
~One Step At A Time By Jordin Sparks

23.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
~Favorite Girl By Day 26

24.WHY WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
~I Remember By Keyshia Cole

25.WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
~Please Don't Go By Tank *kaji baby?*

26.DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
~You Complete Me By Keyshia Cole

27.IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE
~Camouflage By Brandy

28.WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
~Get Away By Avant

29.WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
~Falls Away By Dawn Richard