Chasing dreams

 

 

Do you ever have one of those moments where you’re chasing a dream and you’ve sacrificed your comfort,home,friends and things that were once close and dear to you just to make that dream come true? You notice other people in your life living their lives and doing all the things they’ve always wanted to do but unfortunately it’s not the same for you.You have to sit still,focus on the dream,occasionally looking at the big picture to remain focused,and continue to turn down all those juicy distractions because you know that now is not their time,the time right now is to make that dream a reality.So you feel like you’re putting your whole life on hold,sacrificing things that makes you happy and human,and like that’s not heartbreaking enough,you have to watch other people live their own lives and it makes you feel like you’re missing out on life,like you’re just sitting and watching it pass you by,forget the fact that it’s your dream you’re making these sacrifices for,it still hurts not living like you want to! Sometimes your dreams even take other turns and you realize you have to change the plan or start from scrap altogether. Now all you can do is hope,wish and pray that all those sacrifices and the hurt and pain that comes with them will be worth it in the end,because if the dream doesn’t turn out to be how you dreamt it,then homie,you is screwed!

Oct 29

As some,or most of you know,I was born with Sickle cell disease.If you don’t know what the disease is all about google it please,I don’t wanna talk about it.Anyhoo,the reason why I’m bringing up this topic today is because I’m celebrating something important today.There’s no party or fun planned,just a write-up,prayers and gratitude to God and the people who made it happen for me to see this day.5 years ago(Oct 29,2004),I had a Bone Marrow Transplant/Stem Cell Transplant(google it),it’s basically a process where a patient gets bone marrow from a healthy donor.It was a battle,struggle,fight,war which made me go through all sorts of hell,yes Chemotherapy inclusive,but I won,I did it,I passed and I’m cured.And this wouldn’t have been possible without GOD who provided a cure and showed the transplant specialists the light,ST.ANNA KINDERSPITAL(Vienna,Austria) who told my family and I about this cure and encouraged me to go through with it,MY DAD who decided to do whatever it took to make the transplant possible and a success,and finally,MY BROTHER,MUSTY who ditched school,travelled miles away from home and spent months away from his friends,school and life to get poked with needles,go through series of tests,medication and under the knife to donate his bone marrow to me so I could get better.So yea,I’m grateful for this gift,because I have lost friends to this disease,some knew about the cure,some didn’t,some were too scared to go through with it because of the major risks and complications,while others didn’t live to see the day they get cured.My heart goes out to everyone who is affected by this disease,whether you’re living with it or you know someone who’s living with it,I just want you to know that I know what it feels like,even after 5 years of being sickle cell free,and know that you’re not alone

BFFs

are.so.overrated

I miss Summer..

~Because I’m already tired of wearing boots,booties and sneakers

~Because the sun rarely shines,and when it does,I jump and clap my hands like a kid who just got her favorite toy

~Because it’s no longer warm,I can no longer wear my tank tops or shorts and hang out with my friends at the water front

~Because dressing up is now a struggle: thermal wear,actual top/shirt,sweater or hoodie,stockings or tight before jeans,socks,gloves,scarf,veil or hat,boots,then jacket.In summer all I need is one or two items of clothing,accessories and I’m good

~Because Starbucks is now my friend,I hated Starbucks,now I’m addicted to their hot caramel hot choco,which I’m going to hate once it’s Summer again

~Because there isn’t much to do for fun anymore,and everyone is cold and wants to stay home

~Because I have the baddest flu and it’s not getting any better,my trash can is filled with tissues and I’m on my third box of kleenex

..I miss Summer

Ummi

I don't know where to begin this post from but I'll give it a try.Today is my sister's birthday,my sister from another mother,my friend,my partner-in-crime,my other half and my love,Ummi.We've been through a lot since we were 8 from fighting like Tom & Jerry to realizing we're sisters and appreciating each other.I love her to bits because she's someone I could ALWAYS count on,someone who is ALWAYS there to listen,ALWAYS making me laugh when I don't even wanna smile,someone who brings out the crazy and fun in me.She's really an amazing person who is rarely down or frowning.Ummi is someone who is always hyper,obsessing on fooine Indian guys and always dancing whether its from the kitchen to the room or on the dance floor.Sometimes I wonder how and why she rarely gets upset about anything,she just smiles and shrugs it off,I'm learning to become like her.She's just a wonderful person I'm glad to have in my life and call a sister and a friend.I can't imagine what life would be without you babes,I don't even want to imagine it.So on this day,your birthday,I pray that God gives you more happiness,success,joy,love and I hope that all your saved up wishes come true.I pray that we'll have more years together of fun,laughter,craziness and shenanigans.And I'll keep my promise on sending you on a trip to India to find you Mr.fine & romantic guy once I get rich,however if you happen to find one there and decide to stay,know that I'll come with my wheel barrow and ship you back to where ever I am! Love you Sis! X

Happy Birthday Phatee..and Usher

Phatee,I hope today brings you joy,happiness and lots of blessings.Hope today is the start of something new and good for you.I love you so much because you're awesome,different and most importantly,you're YOU! Don't ever stop being you,don't ever stop being awesome, and don't ever stop smiling! Happy Birthday again ;)

My Style

..The only reason why I'm blogging on this topic is cuz I'm too lazy to blog about the original topic I wanted to talk about.Blame it on my lazy butt..I can't be bothered to think and type,and the topic involves lots of thinking,reasoning and ohh..just remembered an essay I have to help my bro with..I should probably go work on that..Anyhoo..back to My Style ..
..I don't really have one..mostly I just wear whatever pleases me.I could dress in pink or like a diva today and then wear boyfriend jeans,a loose tee,hoodie and chucks the next day.I like casual alot..and then I love dressing up like it's my last day on earth! My style is hard to describe,well by me anyways..I can't stick to a particular style,color or type of clothing cuz I get bored easily..so I'm into everything..or rather,almost everything! Few pix of what I wear..starting with day time wears and then night time..Hope you likey :-)

 

• <-Shirt-dress with tights

• <-I love tees,all tight fitting tees ;) And I especially love Little Miss Tees,hoping to have a collection soon

 

• <- Some days I just wear anything that color coordinates,xcuse the brown bag

• <- I love headbands,so the only way to wear them together with my veil is to use hair pins and hold the sides of the veil to the hair bands..genius huh? I know! :P

• <- Ana Muslima :-)

• <-Love this shoes,pardon the “un-pedicured” feet,too busy enjoying summer to go sit my behind down for a pedi

• <- A top & vest can do the trick

 

• <-A blazer on days when vests won’t do the trick

 

Ayt..I’m outta here..be back soon..ex.oh