Do You Know?

~Do you know what it feels like to go to bed worried about whether or not you'd live to see morning?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up and burst into tears because you've been given another chance,another day? Grateful for that?

~Do you know what it feels like to hear doctors say you can't make it and there's no hope?

~Do you know what it feels like to stay strong when the odds are high?

~Do you know what it feels like to be haunted by your past, unhappy with your present and uncertain about the future? Do you?!

~Do you know what it feels like to smile when all you really wanna do is break down and cry?

~Do you know what it feels like to have your neck and back ache from being too weak and bended by life's burdens?

~Do you know what it feels like when the only people you can relate too are those suffering and not happy people?

~Do you know what it feels like to question everyone's loyalty in your life? Afraid they might not stand by you?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up in the morning and realize everyone who promised to be there walked out and left?

~Do you know what it feels like to wonder if God is still there? To beg Him not to let go?

~Do you know what it feels like to lose faith and feel so lost?

~Do you know what it feels like to pray with all your heart that the end of your suffering will be here,and not death? Do you?!

"You know nothing about my life,what I've been through,what I'm going through,and what my struggle is all about"

BooBie

Too many people have walked in and out of my life but not her.She walked in,sat,and promised never to leave.Too many people have disappointed me but not her.She's always there to cheer me up when I'm down,lift me up when I fall,laugh and cry with me,or just sit beside me and think.I'm so glad to have a bestfriend like her,cause let's face it,everyone needs that special someone in their life,who's gonna be there through thick and thin,and no matter what happens,you know they'll always be there.She's my Better Half,She's my friend,She's my sister from another mother,She's my BooBie! And today,I wish you the bestest birthday ever,and I love you,more than I did yesterday,less than I will tomorrow!

I have fought and fought
It seems like the war isn't ending
I don't know how much more I have to fight
I just know that I have to keep fighting

It's so hard because I'm too weak
And I feel like I'm too weak to even try
Too weak to keep fighting
But what other choice do I have but to fight?
Who is going to fight this war for me if I don't?

I've shed tears and broken stuff
I've fought all those who love me
I've begged them to understand my pain
And I've pleaded with them to walk with me,
Stand by me,hold my hand and never let go

But I have to keep on fighting
Because everyone in life is fighting a war
And only the stronger souls win and triumph
Everyone else breaks,falls,and loses

People look at me and wonder why I'm so sad
I try to explain that my war is too big for me
But I'm not sure they really understand
So I just smile and tell them "I'll be fine"
And then I continue to fight my war

Occasionally I stop to cry
To wipe the sweat away
I stop to rest and strech
I stop to see how far I've gone
And to see how far I still have to go
I stop to smile at my progress and
To learn the lessons from my mistakes
And then I continue fighting my war

I love those who walk with me
Those who stand by me
And those who fight with me

Together we laugh,we cry,and we fight
Till there's nothing more to fight for
Till it's all over and done with
Till I,together with them
Win the fight

I am officially obsessed with these songs:

• Trust by Keyshia Cole
• Arab Money by Busta Rhymes
• It Is Yours by J.Holiday
• Will You Be There by Micheal Jackson
• Forever And A Day by Lionel Richie

Busta Rhymes and Lionel Richie are coming to Vienna *woot..I hope I get to attend their concerts,seeing as I've already bought my tickets *rigima. Beyonce is coming too,can't wait to go do the "Single ladies" dance with her *hehe..Pink will be coming too,but unfortunately,I can't get tickets..oh well..these will do.

I had a fun spring break.My spring break started way before everyone's.I don't follow calendars and season/weather change.So for all those still stuck in winter,sorry for you!..Where was I? Yeah spring break.I had fun with my lieblings(german for darlings).We went shopping,bowling,went out of the country to Prague,played "whot"(Nigerian card game) at home,in the trains,at restaurants(I won many times,go me!!).So sad it's ended now but glad it happened.Now I feel all happy,loved,and motivated for the challenges that lay ahead for me.

What else do I need to talk about? *Hmm..

My daddy is coming soon..yay!..He's missing me..Ahhh I smell shopping :D