Do You Know?

~Do you know what it feels like to go to bed worried about whether or not you'd live to see morning?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up and burst into tears because you've been given another chance,another day? Grateful for that?

~Do you know what it feels like to hear doctors say you can't make it and there's no hope?

~Do you know what it feels like to stay strong when the odds are high?

~Do you know what it feels like to be haunted by your past, unhappy with your present and uncertain about the future? Do you?!

~Do you know what it feels like to smile when all you really wanna do is break down and cry?

~Do you know what it feels like to have your neck and back ache from being too weak and bended by life's burdens?

~Do you know what it feels like when the only people you can relate too are those suffering and not happy people?

~Do you know what it feels like to question everyone's loyalty in your life? Afraid they might not stand by you?

~Do you know what it feels like to wake up in the morning and realize everyone who promised to be there walked out and left?

~Do you know what it feels like to wonder if God is still there? To beg Him not to let go?

~Do you know what it feels like to lose faith and feel so lost?

~Do you know what it feels like to pray with all your heart that the end of your suffering will be here,and not death? Do you?!

"You know nothing about my life,what I've been through,what I'm going through,and what my struggle is all about"

BooBie

Too many people have walked in and out of my life but not her.She walked in,sat,and promised never to leave.Too many people have disappointed me but not her.She's always there to cheer me up when I'm down,lift me up when I fall,laugh and cry with me,or just sit beside me and think.I'm so glad to have a bestfriend like her,cause let's face it,everyone needs that special someone in their life,who's gonna be there through thick and thin,and no matter what happens,you know they'll always be there.She's my Better Half,She's my friend,She's my sister from another mother,She's my BooBie! And today,I wish you the bestest birthday ever,and I love you,more than I did yesterday,less than I will tomorrow!

I have fought and fought
It seems like the war isn't ending
I don't know how much more I have to fight
I just know that I have to keep fighting

It's so hard because I'm too weak
And I feel like I'm too weak to even try
Too weak to keep fighting
But what other choice do I have but to fight?
Who is going to fight this war for me if I don't?

I've shed tears and broken stuff
I've fought all those who love me
I've begged them to understand my pain
And I've pleaded with them to walk with me,
Stand by me,hold my hand and never let go

But I have to keep on fighting
Because everyone in life is fighting a war
And only the stronger souls win and triumph
Everyone else breaks,falls,and loses

People look at me and wonder why I'm so sad
I try to explain that my war is too big for me
But I'm not sure they really understand
So I just smile and tell them "I'll be fine"
And then I continue to fight my war

Occasionally I stop to cry
To wipe the sweat away
I stop to rest and strech
I stop to see how far I've gone
And to see how far I still have to go
I stop to smile at my progress and
To learn the lessons from my mistakes
And then I continue fighting my war

I love those who walk with me
Those who stand by me
And those who fight with me

Together we laugh,we cry,and we fight
Till there's nothing more to fight for
Till it's all over and done with
Till I,together with them
Win the fight

I am officially obsessed with these songs:

• Trust by Keyshia Cole
• Arab Money by Busta Rhymes
• It Is Yours by J.Holiday
• Will You Be There by Micheal Jackson
• Forever And A Day by Lionel Richie

Busta Rhymes and Lionel Richie are coming to Vienna *woot..I hope I get to attend their concerts,seeing as I've already bought my tickets *rigima. Beyonce is coming too,can't wait to go do the "Single ladies" dance with her *hehe..Pink will be coming too,but unfortunately,I can't get tickets..oh well..these will do.

I had a fun spring break.My spring break started way before everyone's.I don't follow calendars and season/weather change.So for all those still stuck in winter,sorry for you!..Where was I? Yeah spring break.I had fun with my lieblings(german for darlings).We went shopping,bowling,went out of the country to Prague,played "whot"(Nigerian card game) at home,in the trains,at restaurants(I won many times,go me!!).So sad it's ended now but glad it happened.Now I feel all happy,loved,and motivated for the challenges that lay ahead for me.

What else do I need to talk about? *Hmm..

My daddy is coming soon..yay!..He's missing me..Ahhh I smell shopping :D

Falls Away

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
~This Luv By Donnell Jones

2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
~If I Was Your Man By Joe

3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
~Sucka For Love By Danity Kane

4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
~Man In Your Life By Joe

5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE??
~I Need A Love Song By Babyface

6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
~Murder She Wrote By Trey Songz

7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
~I Stay In Love By Mariah Carey

8.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN
~Gonna Find My Love By Brandy

9.WHAT IS 2+2?
~Long Distance By Brandy

10.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
~Ride For You By Danity Kane

11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
~BestFriend By J.Valentine *cough,the whole song describes us*

12.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
~Impossibe By Omarion

13.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
~If this Isn't Love By Jennifer Hudson

14.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
~If I Hurt You By Mario

15.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
~Natural High By Colby O'Donis

16.WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
~Just Stand Up (To Cancer) By Various Artists

17.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST
~Halo By Beyonce

18.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
~The Greatest By Michelle Williams

19.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
~Come With Me By Day 26

20.WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
~Good For Nothing by Ginuwine *no kidding*

21.WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
~I'ma Flirt By R.Kelly *LOL*

22.WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
~One Step At A Time By Jordin Sparks

23.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
~Favorite Girl By Day 26

24.WHY WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
~I Remember By Keyshia Cole

25.WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
~Please Don't Go By Tank *kaji baby?*

26.DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
~You Complete Me By Keyshia Cole

27.IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE
~Camouflage By Brandy

28.WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
~Get Away By Avant

29.WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
~Falls Away By Dawn Richard

30 Random things about Samira

1 The underwear and socks I'm wearing has to be same colors,so if i'm wearing pink undies,my socks definitely have to be pink

2 I have NEVER been broke in my 21 years of life

3 I have a handbag fetish

4 I always find myself smiling and saying "i'm ok"..even when I'm not

5 My dad is the love of my life, my everything. He's my friend and the Mum I don't have

6 I am obsessed with buying shades

7 I am easily distracted by shiny objects

8 It took me 4 years to quit nail-biting,I made it a resolution every year but always broke it

9 My laptops NEVER last long

10 The clothes in my closet are organized based on tshirts,shirts,tank tops,dressy tops,sweaters,long sleeved tops,gowns,jeans,skirts,pants..you'll never find a jean in a pant section or a tank top in a tshirt row.

11 I fall in love easily, and I move on quickly

12 I have a dream, to build a big hospital in Nigeria,and make sure it works

13 I don't care what people say about me,wanna get me? Say crap about someone I care about

14 I am VERY VERY VERY defensive when it comes to my friends/family..no matter how close I am to you or how much I love you,I'll fight you!

15 Pink is my favorite color

16 When it comes to being a shopaholic, I am #1

17 I have a habit of grading my friends,and if a friend lets me down,I demote him/her..If another tries being a good friend,I promote them, I'm not telling you the grades though!

18 I learnt about who I was,my purpose in life and who I wanna become in a hospital bed while fighting for my life

19 I'm a really shy person

20 My waist size is 24 ..there I said it!

21 I come from a REALLY big religious family

22..And in a family full of conservatives,my dad is liberal

22 I have different playlists for different moods (e.g. "I See Clouds" for Daydreaming and "Heal Me" for when I'm sad/down)

23 I am in LOVE with Usher

24 I have lots of step siblings and we love each other too much!

25 I still keep diaries/journals

26 I love twins and hope to have a set in the future

27 I want to live in Paris,New York, and L.A before I get married

28 I want to be kissed in the rain

29 I have been away from home(Nigeria) for 6 years now

30 I had a crush on "him" and I still do

Camouflage by Brandy

I cannot sacrifice who I am just cuz you have a problem with it.Love me for who I am and don't try to change me.If you cannot handle me at my worst,then you dont deserve me at my best,the door is always open for you to walk out. P-E-A-C-E!
LYRICS:

I'm a work in progress
I'm a seed grown into a flower
I'm a storm that's rising
Getting stronger with every hour
And god knows I ain't perfect
Tell me who in the world is
All I know is that I'm searching
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I've got
They're a apart of who I am
Take me or not
And I finally understand
I'm so done trying to be everything you want
And I have to stop
Because baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage

I need a lot of improvement
Not even half way to destiny
But I'm a train that's moving
And everyday I'm picking up speed
And god knows you ain't perfect
So who are you to put pressure on me?
That's why I'm still searching
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I've got
They're a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
And I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop'
Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage

I've learned from my mistakes
The only way you're gonna be happy
Is if someone's down to take
You evenere when it's good and it's bad you see
I tried giving half of me
In the end I came up empty
And that's why I'm searching, yeh
For somebody to love me with these flaws

These flaws I've got
There a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop
'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage

These flaws I've got
There a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
And I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop
'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage
If I gotta camouflage

'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
Baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage