Camouflage by Brandy

I cannot sacrifice who I am just cuz you have a problem with it.Love me for who I am and don't try to change me.If you cannot handle me at my worst,then you dont deserve me at my best,the door is always open for you to walk out. P-E-A-C-E!
LYRICS:

I'm a work in progress
I'm a seed grown into a flower
I'm a storm that's rising
Getting stronger with every hour
And god knows I ain't perfect
Tell me who in the world is
All I know is that I'm searching
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I've got
They're a apart of who I am
Take me or not
And I finally understand
I'm so done trying to be everything you want
And I have to stop
Because baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage

I need a lot of improvement
Not even half way to destiny
But I'm a train that's moving
And everyday I'm picking up speed
And god knows you ain't perfect
So who are you to put pressure on me?
That's why I'm still searching
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I've got
They're a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
And I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop'
Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage

I've learned from my mistakes
The only way you're gonna be happy
Is if someone's down to take
You evenere when it's good and it's bad you see
I tried giving half of me
In the end I came up empty
And that's why I'm searching, yeh
For somebody to love me with these flaws

These flaws I've got
There a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop
'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage

These flaws I've got
There a apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
And I'm so done trying to be everything you want
'Cause I have to stop
'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't camouflage
For love, for love
I won't camouflage
If I gotta camouflage

'Cause baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage
Baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta camouflage

Some of the TV-Series I Heart

• Prison Break-Yup after resisting it for 3 seasons I finally gave in.Now I heart it so much,it's just so woow!

• Grey's Anatomy-Just can't get enough of the drama from Seattle Grace Hospital.

• Gossip Girl- You just have to watch it to understand.

• The hills- Love L.C,hate Speidi,Love the drama!

• Run's House/Daddy's Girls- I just love Run's Family,very entertaining.

• Bones- Bonessssssss..'nuff said!

• Numb3rs- I heart Charlie Epps,he's one of my husbands

• Boston Legal- Who doesn't love Denny Crane and heart Alan Shore?!

In 2008..

..I went to the New Year's Eve countdown

..I watched "27 Dresses"

..I had lots of flowers and chocolates on Val's Day

..I got closer to the most important people in my life

..I tried to be a better friend/sister/daughter/student/girlfriend

..I turned 20,and kissed teenage years goodbye

..I read "Half of a Yellow Sun" by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

..I became more obsessed with Shopping,Music,Love & Laughter

..I learnt that in life,you don't always get what you want

..I learnt that good things happen to those who wait

..I watched the "Baby Mama"

..I watched a whole lot of new good movies that came out,mostly online..Shhh!!

..I learnt that life is like a clock,you just tick-tock with it

..I had a beautiful spring and I fell in love

..And then had an awesome summer with my family

..I realized I missed them so much and was thankful for the time we spent together

..I went shopping with them,we went to parks,picnics,shared stories and loved each other

..I made new friends,and formed a special bond with the old ones

..I went from a girl to a diva..a fashionista, and a woman of class

..I filtered drama-filled & troublesome people outta my life..ciao bellas!

..I loved me,for who I am,and promised never to settle for less but to go for more <3

..I got hurt,I cried,I got angry,but in the end,I got stronger

..I am grateful to God,for the pain,the heartaches,the love,the joy,family & friends, and everything I have and do not have

..I am grateful to 2008,for preparing me for 2009 and many more years to come

..I am grateful to you,who appreciates me,and love me for me!

Hola!!

Merry Christmas People!..I'm still waiting for presents,can never get enough..

So what is everyone doing for New Year?I still have no idea what I'll be doing,but whatever it is,should be fun aye?

Speaking of New Year,I pray it's gonna be better than all the past years..it's time to be stronger,better and harder..it's time to be free..if you know what I mean..

So goodbye to 2008,all its drama and heartache..and hello 2009!!

Hola!!!

I've been running away from blogging for a while now cuz umm..I'm too lazy to sit,think and blog and I have no idea what to blog about.So i've been going around reading other people's blogs and chilling.."Chilling" has now become my favorite word,not that I'm really chilling,well I sorta am,buh cuz I just don't know what to say when I'm asked what I've been upto.It's easier to just say "I'm chilling",doesn't matter whether its true or not.Hey I don't owe you xplanations now,do I?..ahh well.I've been sleeping,eating,hanging out,watching movies,and what not,so yea I'm chilling.On the other hand,I've been down,bored,stressed and frustrated.And no,I can't tell you why,cuz there's no cause for control,everything is under alarm! LOL kidding,buh you get my point,I'm all good now and taking things easy,amen to having a super duper boyfriend and amazing friends.So back to what I've been upto,let's start from movies.I watched:

*Kung Fu Panda.It's the funniest movie I've watched in like forever!! So hilarious,unless you have a wacky sense of humor(no offense).

*Hancock.Will Smith,I love Will Smith.He's always funny even when he's being serious and all.Many people claimed Hancock was disappointing buh I LOVED IT!!..First time I went to the cinema and almost fell outta my chair from laughing!

*Made of Honor.It was ok,hilarious as well.

..Can't remember what other movie I watched,urs truly still suffers from CRS! *hehe

UEFA EURO 2008 came and went.It would have been cool,if only I wasn't living in the country that hosted it.Austria decided to punish me and host this event.Well I enjoyed the whole football spirit buh come on!! The fans were soo loud and annoying.There were nights when I couldn't sleep.I'm glad Spain won,and I'm glad it's all over.Now Summer can begin!! 

I don't have much plans for summer,as usual,buh I'm hoping to have fun.What am I saying? I've BEEN having fun!..from going to the pool,to shopping(yes my daddy came,and he spoilt me),to just hanging out,to umm..being lazy.I'm hoping to see my siblings in the first week of August,dunno why they're dragging their feet and taking their time,can't understand why they won't just get on the plane and come see me.Guess I'll just have to wait,not that I have a choice.I'm also moving to a new apartment,I'm excited and looking forward to it.I love moving,but I hate packing,yup I'm lazy and I'm proud of it!!

                                        !!!NOW THE GOOD NEWS!!!

My sis,who is obsessed with perfumes,woke up one morning and decided she wanted a fragrance line.I thought she was kidding,till I saw her go out and come back with different bottles of scents.Next thing I know she's mixing them all up to create her own scents.Impressive u'd say,buh not when I have to sniff/smell every single concoction and then give her a feedback on whether or not it's a good mix.After turning my apartment into a lab,she decided to get signed up and make her own perfume.So BeeLoved Fragrances is coming out soon,Habibah Sanusi is doing it big.I shall update you when they hit the stores!

So ladies and gentlemen,I think that's all for now.Enjoy ur summer!

Babygirl is 20!

That's right..I turned 20 on the 6th..no not 6th april,6th May..and u call urself my friend,hiss!..anyways it was one sexy day..I got flowers and chocolates from my dad,who by the way is a million miles away from me..bless him!..I had dinner in Al fayrooz, the food was lovely I had to go back days after my birthday to eat some more..there was Icecream cake *drools* and umm...what else? gifts,yea gifts. Thank u my loves,I lovers u!..n thnx to everyone who bothered to send me a birthday message/wish on facebook, sms me, or call me,and a kiss to those who came to my dinner. For those who wanted to come buh cudnt..dont worry..everyday is my birthday, because I am a new person everyday. So holler at me when u ready and we'll celebrate all over again,its allowed,dont be giving me that weird look jare!..I still dont feel 20 tho..not sure how 20 feels..so ima let u noe when I start to notice any changes. I was about to say(type) something..but I suffer from CRS(can't remember sh*t)..so u'll have to wait for me to remember.

I is Back..

..from the land of laziness and umm..way too many assignments? oui!

"Opinions are like a**holes, everybody's got one and everyone thinks everyone else's stinks"..I am about to give my opinion on an issue,if you dont like it,it's ur problem,I dont give a rat's a**..

..Nigerians and their languages .. I have been trying to understand for long why Nigerians don't like to speak their language,or why they feel ashamed of speaking their own mother tongue,I find it sad.I noe the official language in Nigeria is English..but what happened to speaking ur own mother tongue at home or in unofficial places? eh.. I understand that there're people who can't speak their mother tongue cuz their parents didn't teach them, and there're other people who can speak their language,but are ashamed(especially the hausas,yes feel free to shoot me dead). And then, there are those that can speak their mother tongues but just can't be bothered, whateva category u fall in, give urself a pat on the back,but do not criticize me for being different! 

     Do not call me local or malo just cuz I choose to say something in my OWN language instead of English! Dont look down on me just cuz I choose to speak it!Do not roll ur eyes at me just cuz I refuse to roll my tongue like the Americans or British. Do not shake ur head and act like I'm pathetic just cuz I'm not like u! I love my mother tongue, not cuz I grew up speaking it at home, but cuz Hausa is WHO I AM. I dont have anything against English, I just dont understand why Nigerians are ashamed of speaking their mother tongues but feel on top of the world when speaking English. I don't see the Italians trying to look good with Arabic, and I dont see the point of you a Nigerian trying to look cool with other languages but your mother tongue..where is ur pride? seriously!..

     Anyways I'm done with u, it's a free world right? everyone is allowed to speak their choice of language, and every parent is allowed to say "hey,i cannot be bothered teaching my kids their mother tongue,let them speak english",but I am also allowed to speak my hot and sexy hausa.And I choose to speak it,and guess what? there's nothing you can do about it.Call me a retard for reading hausa books and listening to Saadu Bori,I'll look for a name for u for feeling big with English novels and obsessing about 50cent and the likes of him. I'm not perfect in speaking Hausa but I'm still proud of it being my language,if you have a problem with that,fix it! If you cannot stand it when I say something in Hausa and it sounds local to ur ears,then sit the f**k down! 

     May God bless the next person who'll have the balls to tell me I am malo or local for speaking hausa, I'll unload my anger and explode on u,and trust me,you dont wanna see that happen..so lets do it this way,you choose to look good with whateva language it is, and I feel special and sexy with my hausa. Otherwise?..tuh ni dai na fada nawa! 

P.S- No offense to anyone and no fingers pointed at anyone :)